I’m in the midst of a big push to secure a job by the end of the year, and as such, I haven’t felt it wise to write about my life in any kind of detail lately. Let’s just say that searching for a job tends to make one paranoid.
I will say that, in terms of my personal relations during this period, I’ve experienced everything from cautious displays of empathy to condescension to the silent treatment. It’s been disheartening, to say the least. I’ve been let down. Mostly I feel like I’m completely on my own in all this. I did talk to a single friend recently who told me she’s had the same experiences in her dating and social life, which helped me feel less alone.
The only thing I feel comfortable sharing at the moment is some of the media I’ve come across on the Gateway Women forum and other places. I did get some relief and laughs out of watching the relationship between Hannah and her gay roommate go to pieces on the second season of Girls. I’ve also enjoyed some recent podcasts in which childlessness has been discussed:
http://mentalpod.com/Aisha-Tyler-Live-podcast (near the end)
Happy viewing and listening!
It must be rough not to receive much support from friends as you look for a job. Seems strange — any ideas on why they they’re not more sympathetic? I hope a good job turns up for you as soon as possible. It’s disheartening to spend so much time working on your career and then be in a situation like this.
A few are are empathetic, I think, but skirt the issue as it seems to make them uncomfortable. Others just don’t care, I guess. I think being a single woman is a pretty powerless position, and so they probably don’t think they will get much out of helping me.
A few things have been looking up lately though… all through my own efforts.