This past weekend I spent some time with the non-relationship guy. He came to a show with me, but I turned him down in terms of hanging out afterwards. I felt a bit bad about it, as I know he’s lonely, but my health and sanity has started to take precedence.
He was never able to commit to a relationship and, as he continues to pursue his dream of working in the entertainment industry without success, he has a lot more free time on his hands. I, on the other hand, am tired. I’m a few years older, working in a job that’s tougher than my last one in terms of responsibility. I’ve just been through two moves. I feel more pressure than he does to look nice, keep a clean apartment, and exercise and cook.
I can’t continue to live like this and expect nothing from the men I’m seeing in terms of help or commitment.
Great post. I can totally relate to not feeling like spending as much time with friends that have more free time than me. I also need more downtime than I used to, time for resting and pursuing interests that my friends don’t share. It’s tough cos when you’re lonely you wanna be available but you also need to take care of yourself.