chutes and ladders
by rantywoman
Without getting into specifics, it appears that I may have lost out on the full-time jobs I applied for. I’m not sure what to think now.
On the plus side, there is at least one job, and maybe more, opening up within the same organization that would be a better fit for me. On the negative side, I’m now of course worried I don’t have a chance of getting hired back.
The part-time opportunity is also rolling along, but if I’m offered it and take it, I can’t apply for a full-time position for a lengthy probationary period.
So. I could possibly go with my original plan of working part-time while taking classes and looking for opportunities in new fields. Or I could pass at the clerical position so that I could apply for the full-time jobs and suss out whether I have a chance at them.
And, I suppose, if worst came to worst, after a year I could move back to L.A., but I’m unsure whether I’d survive that.
Just like in dating, I’ll probably never find out why I didn’t get the positions. I can think of three or four completely different reasons, but it could be any or none of those. Another mystery.
thebitterbabe 
Please believe this is a blessing in disguise. This was my first response.
It could definitely be a blessing in disguise, as I will either pursue the part-time thing, pursue opportunities in other fields, or pursue a job in this same organization that is a better fit– all good, right? And yet, it does feel like a discouraging blow, like it doesn’t auger well for my future prospects. I guess I shall see. Back to things being uncertain.
Oy. I hate that feeling. What an emotional rollercoaster. I’m sure it will all work out for the best, even if it might not feel that way right now. And that’s a lot for me to say since I am usually the completely pessimistic, glass half empty kind of person, but I see a lot of potential in all options. Good luck!
Thank you! I think my anger was due to the fact that I had done a 360 about those jobs– from not wanting to apply to seeing the potential and wanting the opportunity to get back in the system. Now I realize it’s a bit ridiculous for me to feel angry about something that I initially didn’t want to do.