capitulation
by rantywoman
I turned in the job application for the safety jobs today. Feeling a bit glum. I could always turn down the interview, I suppose. In the meantime I will hit up an employment agency and try to gauge my prospects. I’m not so sure that applying to ads is going to get me anywhere. I wish I had a little more time to fish, but I’m afraid to pass up an opportunity.
Most of my friends have told me to hold out and think I’m a great candidate with an impressive resume. Maybe, but that doesn’t matter if nobody’s buying. It reminds me of dating. You can have a great profile on a dating site, but so what? It doesn’t necessarily mean anyone’s interested.
I’m feeling a bit defeated but am thinking I’ll rebound in a few days. I’ll have to look on the bright side of things, because once again it looks like making change in the biggest areas of my life (work and love) might prove impossible.
thebitterbabe 
Like many of your readers, I take much of what you write about to heart…. and have thought long and hard about doing something similar to your present adventure. I applaud you for taking the step – It’s very courageous. As far as the job situation, it seems it is a good idea to just apply to whatever seems like a viable option, reminding yourself you can always turn it down at any time (I have even turned down a job after accepting it, when it just didn’t feel right) But the more you can keep your momentum going I think it will be valuable in the long run. At least that’s how it would be for me.
At the same time, don’t be too hard on yourself. You are dealing with a lot of new stuff, and those adjustments are not as easy as when we were 25 …
Thank you and thanks for reading. I do have friends who tell me to just get out there and “sell myself” and “tailor my resume to every job opening” and “set up informational interviews.” The thing is, I did a bit of that when I moved to L.A., and it didn’t land me any dream jobs, and I spent a year in lousy temp ones (although I did get some job offers). I think I’m just run down from moving, setting up a new home, starting school, and now worrying that the job market here is going to be way tougher than I thought.