In addition to my self-accusation of “selfish” yesterday, let me add “inflexible” today. I’m trying really hard to remain open to going to things I’m invited to that don’t particularly appeal to me, but it is difficult. I have a few friends that routinely invite me to events that I feel lukewarm about at best, and I imagine rushing home from work, eating poorly, skipping the gym, driving a half hour in traffic, searching for parking, and then sitting for two hours or standing in a crowd to participate in something I’m just not all that interested in.
I can go out to events twice, maybe three times, a week, tops, and the ones that take place after work are especially difficult to attend (although I also hate to overschedule my weekends). Anything more than that utterly exhausts me, especially with the way things are going at my day job, so when I already have happenings of my own I want to attend, it is very difficult to add new ones to my plate.
I wish, instead, these friends would ask me to meet for a cup of coffee or a drink or a walk and some conversation. Now that I could fit in.
Regardless, I do fear becoming too set in my ways and turning my few friends down too many times.